Yeah, I think I give up with relationships and trying again because nothing goes anywhere no matter how hard I try and want it to work out. I keep going back and forth on this whole thing, and right now I just want to give up. I should just start accepting the fact that I’m going to die alone, well, maybe not alone, I’ll have my cats at least. They’ll love me and never leave me. 

But yeah, I think I give too much effort too quickly and scare everyone away. That or I must really be that ugly after awhile. Or I must be boring and just not worth the effort. Low self esteem is low.