February 2012
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Yeah, I think I give up with relationships and trying again because nothing goes anywhere no matter how hard I try and want it to work out. I keep going back and forth on this whole thing, and right now I just want to give up. I should just start accepting the fact that I’m going to die alone, well, maybe not alone, I’ll have my cats at least. They’ll love me and never leave...
I give up.
Hi, there.
Nothing’s new, everything feels repetitive, like I’ve been living here longer than a couple weeks. Life goes on, you know? Well, my life feels like it’s at a standstill, with everything. My emotions, everything going on, work, it’s all the same and nothing seems to be moving forward no matter how much I push. I feel like giving up and waiting for something to happen....
I’m such a sucker for them bad boys.
Seriously, though. I miss you.
All my things are at my mom's house now.
Still have hella shit to do, though. Need to do a lot of cleaning in this house. It’s a damn mess! I’m hoping by this weekend, everything will be all nice and tidy… at least in my room.
Ugh, I’m so ugly and gross.
Now, my life is sweet like cinnamon. Like a...
I’ve come to terms with the situation I’m in. I’m still sad that I have to move, but on the bright side I’ll be able to spend more time with my little sister and who knows, maybe this change will lead to more positive ones? My mom is more driven about my future than me and she’d be a lot of help to me. My grandma still won’t be far from me, I have the time to...
Julian Casablancas and the Strokes appreciation post.
I somehow keep giving my all to people who don’t do the same for me.
Uly and Anjel are my soul mates.
billyhilton:
They are my family. They both own my heart. I don’t know what I would have done without them these past two days <3.
I don’t know what I’d do without you this past week! I probably wouldn’t have even smiled at all if it wasn’t for you <3
It's almost been 15 years since I first moved into...
After all these years, the time for living here has reached it’s end. It’s not by choice either. We’ve been evicted because we can no longer afford to live here. Things have gotten that bad with my family. We’re financially and emotionally unstable. We’ve always been this way and I guess, after all these years, we’ve finally hit a breaking point. Things are...
I normally don’t get annoyed of people, but this bitch…
I bought a star projector night light, finally.
My christmas lights broke, and this is definitely an upgrade.
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I thought I looked pretty today and I guess confidence really helps because this lady at Target called me gorgeous and someone tried to holler at me… from the passenger side, but I don’t want no scrub.
Guess what?
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
Current musical obsession is definitely Lana Del Rey. Love that lady.
Rule #32 Appreciate the Little Things
I’m really trying to keep up that positive outlook on life that I normally have, I really am. I guess things could get worse, but everything feels like it’s at it’s worst. Yesterday, my heart sank getting a text from one of my best friends. All this bad news I keep getting is really taking a toll on my emotions. There’s very few things keeping me afloat and happy these past...
January 2012
48 posts
Ahh, okay, I’m better now. It’s the little things that make it better.
I just want it to be over. I'm tired of all this.
Okay, so I know this is weird, but like sometimes I think people forget my name. It’s like this… I know that person for so long and in that whole time that person won’t ever say my name or anything and well, I don’t know why, but I feel like they just don’t remember my name so that’s why they don’t say it. Then, I’ll be creepy and create a situation...
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One word text messages after a long one make me die a little inside.
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I get too emotionally attached too quickly,...
I don’t care how upset I am, if you’re feeling just as bad as me or worse, then fuck my emotions for now. I’ll do whatever it takes to make you happier because I honestly can’t stand to see anyone I care about to even feel slightly sad. Cheer up because I love you and it’ll cheer me up. Your happiness > mine.
#sadgirlproblems
If you say you care about me, then mean it and show me that you do. Don’t just say it to me and not mean it because you’d be leading me to think that I could rely on you to listen to me when I need it and then, if you fail to do so, it’ll only lead me to disappointment. Then again, I’m pretty used to that. I’m used to people telling me one thing and not really meaning...
I’m such an idiot for everything last night, I regret like, everything. I should’ve just stayed home and be bored because ugh, now I feel like you think I’m … I don t even know. Just thinking too negatively today.
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I couldn’t really enjoy myself last night because I just kept wishing you had been there, too. Ughh.
I cant wait to reread this post tomorrow when im...
I don’t remember anyone’s face I danced with, I was too drunk oh god though this one guy was all up on me I juat wanted to ve free from him ughhhh angel is not a good cockblock. Im still kind of drunk and we’re gettinf food. I juat wanna sleep and there was forreal only one person on my mind all night maybe thats why it wasnt as fun. this is like the longest car ride ever I cant...
Ugh, this is so gay of me but...
Billy, this is for you, bitchho.
It may have not been so many years that I’ve known this fellow, but the few years that I’ve gotten to know him and be his friend, I’d have to say that the best moments of my life so far had to have been with him. More gayness, but he seriously completes me like no other. We laugh, talk and do some stupid shit when we’re together, but I...
Plans for today:
Lunch with the family
Out to the mall
More errands
Get home and get ready to clubbb
Dance the night away
We out! I haven’t been to a club in days. I hope it’s legit tonight, I’m about to go cray.
This summer I have to:
Get colored smoke bombs to mess with
Get pigment powder in bulk to mess with
Fill room with foam and party it up
Do it all drunk
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My plans for tonight are to draw people I know in...
So, I went to Berkeley with my cousin, her boyfriend and her best friend and oh my goodness, I felt like such a tag-a-long or like the little kid that they have to take with them because some adult is making them. It was okay and all, but I didn’t exactly have the time of my life. The stores I wanted to go to, they ended up just fucking waiting outside for me and that made me feel bad. When...
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If I let you in, you’d just want out. If I tell you the truth, you’d vie for a lie. If I spilt my guts, it would make a mess we can’t clean up. If you follow me, you will only get lost. If you try to get closer, we’ll only lose touch. Yes you already know too much, and you’re not going anywhere.
Heart Skipped A Beat ; The XX
God, my obsession with street art is getting out...
My obsession with everything I’m obsessed with is actually getting out of hand. I have so many folders with so many photos saved in them, but oh god, I don’t want to delete any of them. I just want to save them forever for no reason. Wth.
Almost a month since my last cigarette. I made it a resolution to completely quit this year, again and so far so good! I hope at least I last longer than three months this year…
Just stop it. Stop looking at the flaws in people, yourself and pretty much everything all the time. That’s all you ever see. . I hate that you don’t see what I see because you’re beautiful. And, maybe if you open up your eyes some more you’ll see not everything is terrible and there’s beauty in this shit world we live in.
Scary Monsters & Nice Sprites by Skrillex reminds of of every party, ever from last year lol and I mean the whole little ep. It always fucking played at every single one! Well, at least the ones with my usual crowd from last year. Ahh, memories…
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I want to see what Aurora Borealis looks like in...
I love how my cousin just called me and was like “Soo, I’m coming to visit for a few days tomorrow.” That’s cool, thanks for the heads up so early in advance lol. I missed her, I can’t wait to see her.